I have a dilemma that I need your help resolving. The root problem is my mind doesn’t match my body. Wait! Don’t run off thinking I’m another freak with a bullhorn. That’s not what I want nor what I’m looking to resolve.
This mismatch is a small problem compared to pedophilia or aspergers but it nags at me day and night. How should I resolve this? Here are the choices that I have:
No medication has ever worked to change the brains of people like me. This suggests it’s not a mental dysfunction like autism or many psychosis.
Have you ever had a song get stuck in your head? Yeah, just about everyone has. Imagine that song (or fragment of song) won’t stop playing in your head – EVER. It’s torture enough when it happens for a short time. Imagine the horror of finding out it doesn’t stop with time. In fact as you get older the song gets louder and stronger and the treatment gets less and less effective.
Live in perpetual torture until you die.
Hormone Replacement Therapy
That leaves 2 choices: change the body or live in perpetual torture to your last breath. And believe me, it is every bit as bad as the dripping water torture and the only way to slow the drip is to change the body. And once changes start you face a whole new set of problems to compound your existing problems.
So if I do nothing I will be living a lie, keeping myself hidden from the world and slowing killing myself, if not driving myself into a mental state that has a 50/50 chance of ending in suicide.
But if I do something then Deuteronomy 22:5 is pronounced and I’m sinning. Worse, I’m turning my back on God and thumbing my nose at him.
Which is worse? Living a lie that kills you or committing an abominable act and asking forgiveness?
Why is Deuteronomy 22:5 not used to show women that wearing any articles of male clothing (which is close to 100% in the USA) is sinning the same way as every cross dresser and transsexual?
Should we examine the outfits of 2000+ years ago and work from that or is male and female garb dictated by society and not God? From what I’ve learned the biggest difference is men’s robes were a few inches shorter with tassels and women’s robes had longer sleeves. Do we follow that rule? Why not?